All I have to Give (2/22)

[coco]

AN: Hey everyone i'm back, i have finally got my schdule all organized and i should be able to come back more often, but just in case i'm not gonna post in any of the game tho, sorry. Anyways i just had this thought running through my head so i thought i would do a fanfiction for you guys, just to stay involoved.

Title: All i have to give
Disclaimer: I don't own the show so don't sue me cuz i also don't have any money.
Pairings: Buffy/Xander(eventually) Willow/Kennedy Dawn/Other
Summary: A season 8 fiction, continuation of Buffy.

AN: Buffy's POV

Enjoy! ;D

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I hated buses, i did back in high school too, thats was the best part about living in a small town where you school is a couple blocks or so over, you could just walk. Buses are ugly, the smell and the people on them smell. And in this case there was no difference. Of course i was one of those smelly people this time. What was i supposed to do about it, ask the first to hold on a sec before it tried to destroy the world so i could take a shower, yeah right. I don't think any of us having taken a shower in a couple days, we've just been so busy. None of us knew when the end was gonna come so we couldn't really shower before hand.

That's why i so can't wait to get to L.A and Angel Apartment complex he is letting us use. Of course we aren't staying here, we are going off to Cleveland to help protect another hellmouth. And the only reason we're stopping in L.A is because Faith wanted to see Angel make sure everything was okay with him. I don't know when they became so close, but its kinda nice not to have to worry about his all the time considering Faith can do it now, they are good for each other as much as it pains me to think that.

As i look around at the people on the bus my heart goes out to them, this isn't the life they expected to have when they were younger. Saving the world wasn't in their plans for the future, but hey it wasn't for me either so it doesn't bother me that much. We did lose a lot of people today and i do feel for them. Spike, he went out saving the world like a true champion, something he always wanted to do. I'm going to miss him more than everyone realizes. Anya, she went out saving Andrew, weird i know. She died doing the most unselfish thing a human being could do, which was so unlike her, which is what makes it sad. I going to miss her little outburst and her stories where she gives everyone way too much information. She was a good person even if no one saw it. And she really loved Xander.

Xander, oh my god Xander. I can't even begin to imagine what he is going through right now. He lost the only women he every thought he could spend the rest of this life with. Even if he did leave her at the alter. He had asked her to marry him no the less. He must be so torn up inside, i can't even begin to understand.

I lost too many people that i care for this time. I don't know if i want to do this anymore. I look out my window as i watch the world pass me by and all i want to do is yell stop, i'm watching my life pass me by, and now i just want to grab a hold of it and actually live. Hopefully i'll find what i am looking for in Cleveland.

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AN: Hope you liked it. Short first chapter i know but they will get longer.

[coco]

Enjoy

Buffy's POV

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Here we are, Angel's apartment complex, he gave it to me, and i mean literally. Someone called me and told me that it belonged to me, which is weird, i thought he would have left it to Faith or something, but oh well its mine now. Although it sucks that we can't stay here, it will make a nice get away though, when Cleveland becomes too much and i need a nice vacation. Everyone is getting off the bus, everyone but and Xander of course, i feel sorry for him. Anya was a big part of his life and to have that ripped away in a matter of seconds, i understand totally how that feels.

He is sitting in the seat next to mine and look over at him. He is looking out the window, no doubt thinking about Anya. "Hey Xand," he looks at me and i can see that sadness in his eyes and i wish i could take that away from him. He should have to deal with that. "What'da say me and you have a night on the town, just the two of us, you know have some fun," I say.

I watch as he thinks about it. I know he is saying that he shouldn't that he should stay here and get everything in order, and brood, but then again he is thinking about fun, something he hasn't had a couple of months, something he needs. Xander is one of those people that needs to think everything through, making sure everything is set, and that it would be okay.

"Come on, Xand, you know Willow, Giles and Faith can handle this," i say. Yes i said Faith can handle this, she has changed a lot, i can tell, so i trust her. Not a lot, because of what happened in out past i don't think i'll ever be able to trust her again completely, but i trust her enough.

He looks back out the window and i can see a smile forming on his lips. "Yeah, that sounds like fun," he says looking back at me.

"Fun, do you even remember what that is?" I ask jokingly.

He laughs a little too. "Do you?" He says and then he stands up and walks off the bus. I laugh to myself as i to get up off the bus, the laugh felt forigen to me, but it still felt good. When i get off the bus i look around at everyone as they are walking into the big hotel. I trun to my right and see a bunch of people looking at us like were crazy.

That's when i notice that someone is walking toward me, oh great, i can't wait for the questions. "Buffy?" The women asks and i look at her confused. Do i know here? I don't think so. "Oh my god, Buffy Summers?" She asks again, and again i don't think i know her. She is starting to scare me. "Don't you remember me?"

No.

"We went to high school together, back when you went to Hemery, you know before you got kicked out," She explained. Wow way to bring back that past in a matter of seconds. But no, i'm sorry i still don't know you and i think i want to keep it that way. "It's me, Amanda, you know Amanda Morphet," she says.

I rack my brain trying to see if i know this girl. Nope still blank. I see her expression change from one of delight to of sadness. "Oh yeah, i rememeber know!" I say as i hug her and i look so lost i'm surprised she didn't notice. "I'm sorry i've just had a long day it took a little while." she says looking at me. "How've you been?" I ask.

"I've been good you know same old same old. What about you?" She asked and i knew she was looking back at me at all the teenagers.

How have i been? Let's see, i died, i lived, i saved the world, twice, i lost people i love, i found out my sister isn't even my sister, my best friend went evil, i feel in love with a vampire, twice. I give her a smile. "Good, you know same old same old.

"You so have to come out with me tonight," she says, that's great me and Xander need a good night on the town. "Here's my number, call me," she says as the person she is with is pulling her away, thank you mystery person. "Oh and Buffy, i like the brown hair," she says leaving.

I turn around and bump right into Xander. "Hey," I say pushing hair out of my face. "Look, we are going to have a great night as someone who i don't know but knows me is going to show us the town," she says with a smile. Wait did that make sense?

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I am in my room for the night getting ready when i hear a knock at my door. I walk over and open it letting Xander in. He looks good, in a black t-shirt and a black over jacket with blue strips. I bet it would have looks stupid on someone else but on him it looked...hot.

"I'm almost ready," i said walking back into the bathroom. I look myself in the mirror. What are you doing Buffy, thinking Xander looks hot? Don't go there you both just lost someone, plus he's your friend, you can't do that to him. I smile as i look down at myself. I am wearing a brown dress, not too long but then again it isn't too short either. "I'm ready," I say looking down at myself walking out of the bathroom. He is standing there looking at me, not saying anything. I walk toward him but before i car say anything he grabs my arms and pulls me toward him. I feel his lips on mine, and i don't pull away, he lips are warm, unlike anything i have tasted in a long time.

My hands move up to cup his face, i'm not even thinking anymore. I feel his tongue run across my bottom lip and i grant him the access he wants. I feel his tongue playing with mine, both fighting for domaince. I give it to him as i feel his hand roaming over my body.

We are inturruppted by the knocking at my door. I push him away and cover my mouth with hand looking at him in horror. What did i just let happen. "Come in," i say and in walks Amanda.

"They let me just come up, are you guys ready?" she asks. I look at Xander who is still looking at me. I nod and make my way toward him. I don't know if he is following me, but i can't even chance a look. What the hell did i just let happen?

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hope you like it! ;D

[jlpkat100]

wow, that was good, and...... totally unexpected.... and uh plz keep this story going!!!

[druwillow]

yes keep it going!!! I love to write but right now I have no idea what I want to happen with buffy lol